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I feel like I'm trudging through sticky, murky muck. Just being is difficult. I don't know if it's the after effects of lack of sleep (from when my daughter was sick) or poor nutrition (too many pies!!!) over Thanksgiving. My body and mind feel like they are rebelling.
Yes...this passage pretty much sums it up.
"I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out."
Rom. 7:15-18 NIV
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My usual "prescription" of knitting or crocheting with Bible study just isn't cutting it. I seem to sink deeper and deeper. I feel burdened by my repetitive sins and thoughts of them are veering me away from life and toward dwelling in muck. According to "the world", I haven't done anything horrible...just my "usual sins" of procrastination and arguing with God about what I should do, anxiety about what is to come and spending too much money on junk (specifically junk food!!) Though I feel like I'm sinking in the muck, I'm not hopeless. I'm finding little nuggets that get me through.
Later in Romans we are told how we can be saved from these thoughts.
"What retched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God--through Jesus Christ, our Lord! So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God's law, but in the sinful nature a slave to the law of sin."
Rom 7:24-25 NIV
So we need to just give it ALL over to God because Jesus has already saved us. Phew...felling better already.
